I love you maybe because I found my future in you. Maybe because you have inspired and helped me build my dreams, I learned to realize that you're all that I ever need to live and continue my destiny.
It is true that you have helped me realize my dreams. When my eyes got their first look at you, I realized I just simply couldn't help myself but to dream about you in the most special way that I can. I dream you would be the one I would be sharing my dreams and future with. I dream you would become my wife and that special fellow whom I would be loving even to the last of my breath. I dream you would be the mother of my children and together we would share our ups and downs, triumphs and defeats. I dream that with your help, we would be able to raise our children and we would be able to see them grow by time until the moment they too have realized their dreams have come true.
I dream that when we are together, we would be those if not perfect, but responsible parents our children would ever dream of. I would be that father who would be the provider of our family's needs, the pillar of our home, while you would be that mother who would nurture me and our children and who would be that wife who would always back me up. I dream about those mornings in which we are altogether - I am driving the car, you're beside me, and at the back sited our cuddly children childishly taunting at each other while we are all heading up to their school. And after we've gone there, we would then be heading to our workplace. And before we part, we would give each other a kiss.
I dream about those Sundays. We would go to church and after that we would go to some places elsewhere our children would wish to go to. And there we would all enjoy the company of each other.
I dream about those nights in which before we put ourselves to sleep, we would first have short conversations. We would be talking about our plans for our children and how could we further show them how much we love them. We would also reminisce about our past. We would be promising and swearing each other that we would only love one another. And while we exchange promises, we are holding each other, kissing each other, and making love with each other until we have fallen asleep.
Yes, these dreams, whether they would all come true or not, have come to me because you simply inspire me. Definitely, you are my inspiration - in everything that I do and will be doing still, there will only be one person behind all those, and that is only you.
I love you perhaps because you simply own that sweeping aura that literally always sweep me away. I have really never found someone that could send insurmountable shock in me except you. Everytime you are around, I am simply not in myself. You definitely are not as pretty and gorgeous as Keira Knightley or Natalie Portman or other too-many to mention girls, who I have great crushes and obsession, but I know for sure, you are more sweeping than those ladies! You're simple yet hidden behind that simplicity is the great amount of beauty.
Honestly, I have countless dislikes on you. I don't like the way you move. Yes, there's finesse, however, you sometimes possess qualities which could simply and easily make guys turn of with you. There's sexiness in your laughers, however, most of the times they break down barriers - sometimes they become excessive, really excessive.
I don't like your attitude - you easily laugh upon someone's imperfection. You always notice the bad side of one's personality. You always like to talk about personal life of others with our friends. You seem to know alot about entertainment and celebrities. I don't like how you idolize some showbiz personalities that sometimes you even wish you were his wife. Well, maybe I am just jealous about it, but really I hate that.
I don't like when you seem to take for granted others' feelings. Sometimes you didn't notice you were hurting someone else's feeling already. Of course, you did that a lot of times to me.
I really hate it when you open up conversations with our friends about your new crushes right in front of me. I really hate the feeling of seemingly melting like a candle because of your continuing insult of my heart. I hate to hear from you how you were wishing you were his girlfriend, it simply breaks my heart into pieces, it shatters my dreams into minute particles. I really hate it when you ignore my feelings for you. I have told you I love you and yet I could see no reaction from you. I hate it when there are time I realize you simply cannot fall in love with me; not a girl like you could fall in love with a very typical guy like me.
I really hate how you easily make me cry, just as how you weirdly easily make me happy. I hate the fact that one smile from you simply makes my day, simply satisfies my burning need to be noticed by you.
To tell you, I have sobbed the countless teardrops because of you. There were even times I even wanted to end it all up FOR GOOD simply because I couldn't bear that eerie thought of you ending up with another guy. I really hate the thoughts of you slapping my dreams with your ignorance of my love. I really hate that scary notion that I will never be able to live my future right if you would be not by my side. You know, I really hate how you are putting through me all these crazy and paralyzing things, and that while I am experiencing the agony, there you are unconsciously continuing to pile up my burden.
Unexplainably, despite all these killing things you have put me through, still you are the one I really love! I couldn't deny the fact that your love simply has the complete package - with it and if it would be mine, I could never wish anything else anymore. My everything is simply your love!
Becoming damn feeling, the quest for your love has simply made me realize who I really am and what I really want my life to be. Yes, you bring out in me the true meaning of life - no matter how cruel things could be, when you experience the beauty of love, everything can still be beautiful. You simply taught me one important reality - even in the realm of damnation and hellish world, happiness could still reign!
The fact that I can still feel love in spite all the cruelties of life, is maybe reason enough for me to give you all my thanks for letting me love you eventhough my dreams seem to have very little room in reality. I am really grateful to have you as my loved one!
I love you perhaps because simply I love you. Perhaps because it is with you that heart beats. I love you maybe because my heart tells me that you should really be the one I should love. Or maybe I love you because that is what is written in the book of my fate. I love you maybe because God wants me to love you and that He chose you above the rest.
Yes, maybe it is my destiny - I am destined to love you and that you are destined to be loved by me! But whatever the exact reasons maybe, again it is only my fate that holds the answers. But as for now while I continue to ask the question "Why I love you?" I would just continue loving you with all my hopes still with me. Hopefully, I could not just find the answers to the question "Why I love you?" but more greatly to my ever most-wishful gift - your love. Hopefully, hopefully
Subject: WHY I LOVE YOU? 
Mon Oct 20 2008, 16:22
